Day 10: Doc Visit Updates

I have my follow-up appointment this morning and got a whole lot of info.

Let's see. Where to start...

1. Surprise! Still fat.  :/
2. Food allergy testing.  Dairy topped the list, specifically cow's milk.  I suspected as much.  This also helps explain my Activia fiasco from yesterday (and today!)  Ew.  My doctor told me to cut it ALL out.  I try to limit it now, so it shouldn't be too hard. Right??
3. A few fun shockers:  I'm apparently allergic to alfalfa and cabbage, too.  Um. Okay.  (Shrugs)
4. My vitamin D level sucks.  Her exact comment.  "Your vitamin D level sucks."  She also sternly reminded me that I MUST take vitamin D every single day. Set a reminder on my phone.  Tape a note to my bathroom mirror.  Whatever it takes.  Vitamin D deficiencies can cause a multitude of issues.  So, yeah.  I've been a contributor to my funk.  
5. She also did a strep and flu test. The flu swab up the nose is yucky, but I can deal with  it.  Mind over matter.  The strep swab down the throat is always a sure-fire way to remind yourself just how uncool you are.  That gag reflex shows no mercy.  Ugh.  Both came back negative, BUT, I do have some kind of infection right now.  Guess what!  More antibiotics.  
6. My damn thyroid is still out of whack and she believes we can do "much better".  I'm currently on a natural thyroid medication and she's adding a smidgen of synthetic thyroid medication to see if that helps.  I come back in two months for more bloodwork to see if that adjustment helped.

So, it's any wonder that I can't get motivated.  My energy is depleted from the lack of sufficient vitamin D plus the wonky thyroid. This is in addition to the fact that I'm fighting whatever funk is brewing.  

She asked how long I haven't felt well.  After thinking back, I realized that I've been like this pretty much consistently since my mom died in May.  Stress does terrible things.  I've also tried to keep myself busy so I can't sit and think about those final few weeks.  What's crazy is - maybe all that self-imposed distraction backfired.

Holy hell.  I'm a hot fucking mess!  

I have some answers, which is what I really needed.  It's still a matter of seeing if these tweaks work.

I want to be healthy and happy.  I also realize that I need to be better about the things I CAN control - or at least influence - or those things can't happen.

I CAN DO THIS!!!