Day 4

When I went to bed last night, I actually felt okay, which was great.  I still took some meds to help with my coughing.  I woke up feeling like shit AGAIN.  That just makes me grumpy.

On my way to work, I usually get a 44oz. unsweetened iced tea from Sonic. (Best. Ice. Ever.) Not today, friends. Not today. I got a medium diet coke and a large tater tot.  The perfect amount of carbs + caffeine to help squash a headache.

It's also great for hangovers.

So I hear.

Anyway...  

Fortunately, I did feel better as the day progressed.  I had a bit more energy and my mood improved.  

Hoo-fucking-ray.  That's about as interesting as a tooth cleaning.

I have a membership at a local fitness club.  It's a great place and I do like it but yeah... I haven't set foot in there in well over a year.  I even had a trainer at one point!  Regardless of whether I ate a little or a lot beforehand or drank gallons of water or none, 9 out of 10 workouts resulted in a massive headache.  Sometimes, it would start that night, but usually I woke up with it.  She tried all kinds of low-impact workouts in the hopes that I wouldn't get headaches but low and behold, I usually did.  

Perhaps I'm allergic to fitness.  :)

My doctor - the one that suggested that I consider going gluten-free - also suggested that I only partake in very low-impact workouts such as yoga or even meditation.  She said that heavy cardio actually isn't the best for everyone and that the stress on my body tends to be a trigger for the autoimmune flare ups.  Good lord.  Everything is a trigger!  How can I maintain good heart health if I'm not pumping it up?  

I'm into the idea of walking and hiking.  I don't power walk but I do walk at a pretty good clip. Treadmills are boring as hell but they'll do in a pinch if the weather is nasty. I love a change of scenery - mostly because it distracts me from the fact that it's a workout.  My goal is to be leaner and healthier.  I'm not looking to be a bodybuilder or a runway model.  Chunk-free is enough for me!  

There is a walking group where I work that has 4 20-minute walks a week.  It ends up being a little over a mile. Now that the weather is cooler, it's perfect!  The problem is that they are almost always when I have a client call that I can't change.  Yeah, yeah, yeah... it just sounds like another excuse but it's for real!  I have to find a way to schedule around as many of the walks as I can.  

I also sit on the 4th floor of my building. While I walk DOWN the stairs most of the time, walking up is another story.  I have to work up to that.  Huffing and puffing and sweating at work is embarrassing!

(I think that makes the 3rd excuse so far...)

I don't know how to make a plan and stick with it.  I need a little variety but also some predictability.  I need low impact but still impactful overall.  I need simplicity!  

I'm not joining a class. Forget it  I'm WAY too introverted for that.  No, seriously.  (Excuse #4?)  What if I'm GASSY!?!? With my constant tummy issues, OMG.  There are very few people in my life that I'll actually (insert the f-word I refuse to say - let alone type - here) in front of. No way.  (Excuse #5 and counting.)

I WANT A MAGIC FUCKING PILL!  DUH.

Things I do enjoy:
- Walking
- Hiking
- Biking (and by biking, I mean a few miles - not a 20-mile bender)

Things I do not enjoy:
- Group efforts in spandex
- Mean, yelly people
- Running (the last time I tried that, I fractured my tibia)
- Elliptical machines (I do have one at home and will totally use it if I must)
- BEING FAT AND FEELING TERRIBLE

I kicked cancer's ass, so why can't I get my shit together? (Wait! I know! See excuses 1 - 5892 above.)

Oh - by the way... Several of you have offered some fantastic diet suggestions/options.  For right now, until I get my thyroid back under control, I'm being basic and boring and am just focusing on clean eating.  Well, clean-ish because I'm pretty sure that tater tots are not clean in any way.  For dinner, I had grilled lemon chicken breast, corn and quinoa.  That's the stuff I need to stick to.  It's easy.  It's tasty.  I also have a freezer full of precooked, gluten-free meals that I need to eat but that's a story for another post.  Maybe I'll entertain you with that little nugget tomorrow night.  Ooooooh...   

Dear friends, thank you for joining me and keeping me company.  Most of what I spew is just verbal vomit, I realize, but it's calming my brain, so I'm going to keep at it. Lucky you. 

Tomorrow is my weigh-in day! Hoping for a DOWNWARD trend! 

Okay - a few pics from my progress so far today. Woot!

Goodnight, all.  xoxo

THIS. This double chin and jowl action must GO!  Eek!!!!