Day 1

In the last several years, I've gained about 40 lbs.  Most of it is health-related (cancer, early menopause, thyroid and autoimmune issues...).  Some of it is just getting older.  I just turned 46 a few days ago.  Some of it is genetics.  Some if it is sheer laziness.  

I'm tired of being a negative Nancy.  I'm tired of not feeling well. Tired of having no energy.  Tired of a fuzzy brain.  Tired of being fat.  TIRED OF BEING TIRED.

I've said, "this time, I mean it!" more times than I can count.  It never sticks.  Ever.

When I had breast cancer, I started a blog to not only chronicle my journey in the hopes that it may help someone else, but for its therapeutic purposes.  It helped to talk it out and not feel like a hypochondriac.  So, I'm giving that tried-and-true method another whirl.  If you know me, you know that I tend to tell it like it is.  I swear.  A LOT.  No apologies for it...  If you don't like it or if it offends you, you certainly don't have to stick around.  I understand.  I'd love to have you, though!

And so it begins... 

It's time to document what I eat and when (if?) I exercise and take pictures and post them. They won't all be cropped out here. I'll share my good days and my bad days.  I'll share my stupid humor. There will probably be a wee bit of self fat-shaming, too.  Sigh...  

I have an old-school, write-it-down journal for this adventure, too.  I'll also post pics from that here.  

Day 1 from my journal so far.  Yes, you're reading that correctly.  190.1 lbs.  Eek!  No, my food choices today haven't been too stellar.  

This picture makes me so happy and yet so sad all at the same time.  This isn't really me, is it???  :(  Ugh. 

Wish me luck.  I need all I can get...